God is good all the time! Jesse and I had moved to Florida before we had our first baby because we wanted to focus on our marriage, our family, and thought if we didn’t move we never would. It was very hard leaving everyone and everything. I personally had a ton of responsibility as a Regional Manger in my LegalShield business, owning and operating a part time salon business,  running a faith based networking group, and serving at my local church Faith Community. It was very hard leaving our friends and family but we felt God wanted us to move and for me to slow down.

This journey moving to florida and becoming a family of four has challenged and stretched us in so many ways. In my opinion becoming a mommy is way harder than anything I have ever done. I am a different person. 

In the last two years God has really been working on my heart. I have always yearned for success and worth. I had way too much going on that I couldn’t focus on the most important relationship in my life. My relationship with Jesus Christ! My second most important relationship with my husband and family. 

I was way too focused on building my business and empire not God’s empire. I wasn’t focused on who and what God wants me to be. I was chasing worldly success not godliness. 

I finally decided to surrender to what God wants for my life instead of trying so hard to be and do. The kids helped me focus and slow down too. Being a stay at home mom is really hard for me. I’m actually cooking. Lol! I am learning to submit to my husband and it not be a bad thing in my mind. 

God wants me to humble myself and focus on being a wife and mother before anything else. I sometimes feel like a failure but then have to remember that it’s not what God says about me that is the enemy. I have struggled with depression and feeling worthless for a long time. I know I do too much and a jack of all trades. I even have asked  God why he made me the way he did. I know I am overwhelming at times but don’t want to be. Why can’t I be really good at one thing. 

A few months ago I fell off performance club in my Legalshield business. This was really hard for me to accept. I had been working really hard on my business with what little time I had and it just wasnt working for me. I felt overwhelmed and confused. I felt unfulfilled and lost. I was sad I really didnt have many friends. I felt lonely being a stay at home mom. I felt like a failure because I wasn’t really bringing in much income for our family. I was having second thoughts about our  decisions on moving to Florida. What am I suppose to do God? Should I get a job at a salon? Should I just stay home and keep working on my new ideas? What do you want me to do? I had been really down and not sure what to do. 
I have been really resting in Christ any time I have. I am praying and reading his word morning, afternoon, and night. I have taken two months off from any working.

I am asking the Lord to change me into what and who he wants me to be. To give us friends, open doors, and opportunities. Real Church and our church family came into our life at the perfect time. It came into our life when we were feeling lonely and lost. Truly an answer to our prayers. 

The first time we visited because my mom wanted us to go we felt so loved. Everyone was so kind and caring. I got truthbumps from the worship team Paige Collins and Justin Collins.

We enjoyed all the people and had an instant connection with the pastor David John Philips and his wife Courtney Philips. Our daughter even looks like they could be their daughter. We since then are serving wherever they need us and are willing to do whatever.

We finally feel we belong somewhere. We love everything about Real Church. We are so thankful to be apart of starting a church and to be apart of the worship team. This has been something I have always wanted to do. 

God always has a plan. His timing is perfect. He knows what is best for you always. We are excited to learn and grow. We are excited to see what God has in store for Real Church and Clearwater. We are excited to see where God takes us as a family. 
Thank you mom Annie Paredes for telling us we needed to go and for making me try out for the worship team.  I am super excited to be singing again. Thank you God for blessing us with an amazing church family. Thank you for helping me realize what is the most important assignment or job. To build a relationship with you and build your kingdom. 

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.1 peter 5: 6-7